GG's SOULFOOD | BLOG

Truth is... (It's VEDO Baby) THEN. I've struggled to love myself. I was raised in a home with no voice; It was mom's word, or no word. I didn't have it all && I leaned into people pleasing. Chasing their dreams; to make them proud, and to not disappoint them.  As the youngest of 6 kids; I had the whole world on my shoulders and frankly, I wasn't ready to handle their expectations. I lacked emotional maturity. OoOo. If ONLY I'd seen then; what I see now.  "Mental Breakdown" was growth. it was putting myself first. Its kinda hard to stay in...

I knew something wasn't right, when I was uneasy going home - when I seeked connection elsewhere. When my "break" was leaving this house. Spending time alone, when I started self soothing again; after YEARS of suppressing my own. Now; I got my own. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.   XOXO GG

We ain't the same. They say, keep your friend close; keep your enemies closer. I put too much in your hands, its a shame. Is the blame on you? I could say the same for me. Taking accountability for my own actions; my own... EGO Talking; Ugh. I cried too often.

Meditation, Prayer, Mindfulness ~ Gratitude ~ The universe "conspiring" to help you.  Whatever you may call it; taking the time to feel your feelings, juggle your emotions, seeking comfort in yourself, before looking out to see what everyone else is doing... Is one of the hardest things I've ever had to learn to do.   We live in a society that values "Instant Gratification" over Genuine Connection. When I start to get comfortable, I lose sight of what's outside of the box. Outside of my comfort zone... I lose sight of whats MINE, for the taking.   For years, I...

Lately I've been feeling down, down on myself, down on the world, the energy in the air... && Ive been taking some time to meditate. Lean into peoples Energy, and recognizing my boundaries. If I'm replaying our conversations, with a smile, it's on. If I'm having "Mock conversations," & feeling heated.... its off.   Nothing helps me more than spending a couple hours at the gym everyday. Its the perfect "escape" when I'm in my feelings. Or just frustrated.  I love to go around lunch time, to break up my day, and take time for myself. I keep it in my...